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Name: justin
Country: United States
State: California
Birthday: 1/28/1984
Gender: Male
Interests: I dance a bit, i teach a bit. Pictures are great. I like eating, i like sleeping. Traveling is fun also. I like to learn.
Expertise: Over analyzation. Procrastination. Sarcasm. - and other similar negative qualities (hehe). I'm kidding. I'm not an expert anything.
Occupation: Retail Junkie/Student/Instruct
Message: message me
Member Since:
1/14/2004
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| In the last two weeks,
I took a snowboarding trip to Sonora, spent $200 of the tax return I haven't filed yet, woke up an hour late for work and got in a world of trouble, was 2 seconds from dying in a car crash, bought Coldplay concert tickets, rejected nearly ten SGBM performance opportunities, took my first dance class of the year, and celebrated my sister's 20th birthday.
Now I find myself bored on a Monday night, typing this entry.
Anytime I'm by myself my mind runs rampant with thoughts of 'would-be's' and 'could-be's'. I have this thing where I play out different scenarios in my head about whatever is going on in my life. Like what I would say if so-and-so said this to me.
It's a terrible waste of energy - as I tend to get engulfed in my thoughts - almost as if those things actually happened. ..man this is hard to describe.
I think I'm gonna need a shrink for this one day.
My brain is trouble.
Anyway, I've been overly consumed with that, and it's put me in a funk.
Just being honest. Things on the outside have been great.. but on the inside, not so much.
Pray for me please.
I'll try and post again soon.
-J. | | |
| Will called it my "quarter-life" crisis. hah. As if i'm actually going to live to be 100. but thanks Will. 
Just got home from a post-rehearsal trip to Denny's with KJ and Krissy. Each of us created our own plate, adding and subtracting from existing menu items. It was GOOD. I recommend the awesome omelet I put together.
SGBM - probably more specifically Vinh and KJ, planned a birthday song and cake right at midnight. Stopped rehearsal and everything. It was very thoughtful.. and I didn't see it coming. And I think it was the first time I was 'surprised' on my birthday. Thanks guys, I'm gonna remember that.
No crazy plans for the week, I just came back from Vegas on monday.. had a good time out there. Ate a lot (SONICs: 6 times in 72 hours!) and a new buffet. It's ruined my diet, but that's ok.. well worth it. Oh yeah I had Dunkin' Donuts too! I haven't had that since Jeremy and I were waiting for his aunt in Brooklyn a couple years ago. (weird memory) Man we need those in SD!
So what else does one do on his birthday? I dunno. Sleep in, that's for sure. It's nearly 4am and I'm wide awake! All the 'nothing' I did yesterday has caught up to me. And I still have 6 days of this 'nothing' to go. KJ convinced me that I really need the rest. I need to stop trying to be busy for the sake of being busy. "Productivity" I called it, but fine fine. I'll just keep on with my nothingness, heh. (It is kinda awesome though).
I think I'll end up at Mt. Soledad for a bit. A little God and me time. I could really use that. After all, it'll only be a matter of time before I start re-evaluating my life because I've hit another milestone. The next one is 30, and that feels ages away. God and I definitely have plenty of chatting to do before then. haha.
So what perks does this milestone come with? So far I've come up with: $60-$80 off rental cars (the under 25 fee is gone), which is great cuz I rent cars at least twice a year. And now I get to sponsor youngin's at Dave & Busters. haha. That doesn't really sound like a perk. That's just a reminder that you're old.
4:06 and it's time for bed.
Thank you all for the birthday wishes, shout-outs and for whatever else happens today. I'm a blessed man because of what God has given me, and shown me, through all of you.
-J. | | |
| purposely i've avoided posts.
i haven't quite felt like anything was worth mentioning lately. either that, or i was too lazy to spend 20 minutes to type it out, heh.
but the fact that my last post was jan. 7th .. eh, i felt like i should say something.
january's almost over, and i can't recall where it's gone. my post-holiday work hours have been redundant, going back to my 5:30am's - leaving me pretty tired 3 days out of the week. all in all, nothings changed though. work is work.
in between shifts i've been managing a late rehearsal schedule.. or a late after-rehearsal hang-out schedule, heh. it's common for us to hit up denny's or santanas until 2am or so. btw, i get up at 4:15am, so we're talking an hour of sleep. it's usually worth it, hehe. i love spending time with folks after, but dang, next days shift is always a little tougher.
sgbm has been doing well. we're prepping for urban paradise in march. it's actually 6 weeks away? making a few changes to our set too. i think it'll come out nicely.
so what to do when i'm feeling exhausted from work? take 10 days off. that's right, a mini-vacation, and it's about freakin' time. i'm flying out to vegas friday night.. hangin out with Justin for the weekend, coming back monday night, and chillin' for a week. my 25th is on wednesday.. haven't decided if i'm gonna do anything.
i've always wanted to have a party because i've never had one before.. but i don't know if i feel like putting it together. after organizing sgbm's Christmas party i realize how exhausting it is to host something that size at your own place. and it's not like i could have it anywhere else.
i dunno. we'll see.
well as exciting as all of this was, i'm tired of typing.. sooo until next time..
-J. | | |
| I've logged onto xanga more than a couple times in the last few days, and decided to post.
Guess I didn't have much to say (not that this one is going to be exciting or anything, heh).
My parents' 25th wedding anniversary was yesterday. Sounds kinda nuts to say 25 years of marriage right? But I know they'll be together forever.. my dad is awfully weird and hard-headed, and my mom for some reason loves that. haha.
Congratulations Mom and Dad. Love you both very much.
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So I had a good chat with KJ and Vinh about 'how I've been' lately. They both said that I was on their mind this past week, and that they wanted to sit and talk with me.
What's funny is that I never showed any signs of sadness, anger - no emotion to signify there was something wrong. It's awesome how God works because I really needed that talk, and I'm way too hard-headed to approach them and say 'hey, can we talk.' (I probably get that from my dad!). After an hour in the studio, of encouragement, confession, laughter, and prayer, we walked away much stronger friends.
I'm blessed to know those two, forreal. They're always going to be more than 'friends I dance with', and I thank God that He put them in my life.
I feel much better today, and I feel more excited about what God has in store for me this year.
God is amazing.
I'm gonna go read my Bible for the first time in awhile. I say that now because I want to encourage YOU to pick yours up if it's been awhile too.. or, if you've never read it at all! God's Word is how we know who He really is. Dive in and you just might experience that.
-J. | | |
| Happy New Year people!
I usually do this BEFORE the year is over, but i'm only a couple hours late.
So my favorite movies in 08:
5.) Wanted - unique storyline, good cast, good action.
4.) The Curious Case of Benjamin Button - great cast. great story. a bit long, but very memorable.
3.) Iron Man - one of the best Marvel movies. period.
2.) Wall-E - Pixar always impresses. Another GREAT one on their list. Ratatouille was my number one last year, but Wall-E just couldn't top..
1.) The Dark Knight - who didn't love this movie?
I'm sure there are some movies that could make the list.. but I didn't see that many movies this year. It was a pretty good year for movies in my opinion - the few that I saw, haha.
Favorite albums in 08:
3.) Safety Suit - Life Left To Go: they're new, and they're pretty awesome.
2.) Coldplay - Viva La Vida (Prospekts March Ed.): I love everything they do. The Prospekts March EP was a dope addition to the album. Plus I never got tired of hearing "Viva La Vida", even though it was on all the time.
1.) OneRepublic - Dreaming Out Loud: the album came out late last year, but I rocked this junk all through '08. Ryan Tedder is an amazing writer/producer/vocalist and the whole album is freakin' genius because of that. One of the best concerts I've ever been to also!
I think I rarely choose an R&B or Hip-Hop album in my top three. There are always new bands (or old ones with new albums) that just blow me away. Paramore did that in 07, and OneRepublic this year. Even with folks like Mariah, Janet, and Madonna releasing new stuff in 08, I wasn't too impressed. But I look forward to 09!
Favorite Dance Medley's in 08:
3.) the BoogieMonstarz at Public Display 2 - the pieces were dope, and they're always some of the best dancers to watch on stage. I liked how they proved that without Phil, they could stand on their own feet and make something different, work for them. Yay Fam.
2.) ChoreoCookies at Traffic - I heard they did this medley at Prelude too, but since I didn't go, I chose Traffic. Their formations and staging improve every year, the dancers blend extremely well together, and Viva La Vida (their closer) was surprisingly great. They pretty much owned the competitive scene this year. Way to go, SD.
1.) The Camp/Company at Body Rock - The most mature medley (vibe, choreography, song selection) I've seen in years. Clever incorporation of Boy/Girl interactions went great with the songs and resulted in some of my favorite pieces this year (Estelle, Rock Wit U). They know how to be different and still be themselves - a rare quality to find these days.
08 was a different year for SGBM too. Kev was gone. We tried a new approach to directing. And we ventured into new territory on stage. Some of it worked well, and some of it needed work. But it was a huge learning experience, and I plan on making 09 a better year because of it. And now with all our newbies, it'll be a lot to look forward to. I love being a SuperGalacticBeatManipulator Overlord. haha.
2008 was one of those transitional years for me.
Work, dance, my home, and even a few relationships, changed. I'm really looking forward to seeing where things end up this new year.
All-in-all, it wasn't a bad year.. heh.
Thank you God for watching over me, and guiding me through another year. I pray that 09 would be more fruitful, and I would learn to simply be more obedient to your Word. Thank you for friendships both new and old, and I ask that you'd give me the wisdom to deal with the ups and downs, changes and consistencies of such relationships, as they are very important to me. I pray that I would learn to treat my neighbor as myself, and love others more. No matter how hard I work, or how hard I try, I acknowledge that YOU are the ultimate provider of all things, and I am eternally grateful for the things I have, and every opportunity you have given me. I am truly, undeservingly blessed.
Justin J. Vaughn
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